Hmm….

Now I’m not quite sure what is happening but I’m feeling kind of strange at the moment. Everything seems to be getting to me and I/m not enjoying things like I know I should be. I know that work is supposed to be hard but mentally I seem to be struggling. The way things are done here is just so different from what I am used to and I have tried to change the way I think but it doesn’t seem to be enough. I have to stress that I am so grateful for the hospitality and kindness shown by everyone since I arrived here but I think I may have got my priorities mixed up and taken a few things for granted. Now I’m not so sure where I stand and am looking to turn to someone who understands but there doesn’t seem to be anyone… Its weird to think that when I first arrived I thought I had returned home and surrounded by family and friends but in the last few weeks I have never felt more alone.. Sounds dark I know hehe but Im hoping that by using this blog to channel some of my thoughts I will be able to get over this and get back to enjoying life here again :)

The scariest thing of all is that I have actually contemplated going back just to get my head sorted out and get back on track, the exact reason why I came over here to Philly in the first place!!

 

We shall see what the next few days will bring – a lot of talking is gonna happen I think and things need to be said, not just myself but a few others too… Wish me luck, I’m gonna need it